Oh hey, how have you been? What? No, I haven't been avoiding you for years...

Do you want to know a secret? I avoid mirrors. Not ones that show my face, but anything that shows anything bellow my waist, I completely avoid. Do you know those pillars in stores like Marshalls and Bonton and what not that are basically giant mirrors? Well, over the past 21 years, I have completely perfected the art of walking past them without actually looking at them. Nothing ruins the fun of shopping quite like seeing your butt in florescent lighting.

This is one of those small habits that just sort of happen. You don't tell people about it, and you barely even admit it yourself and one day you just realize "I barely know what the bottom half of my body actually looks like." It's scary to think about what sort of habits such as these might have grown into if I hadn't been the leader of my own personal intervention.

Being this honest with you, all of you, makes me so much more comfortable than I thought it would. I thought it would be disconcerting, even a little terrifying laying my whole heart out there on the table, but I enjoy it. Writing these posts is my therapy. Thank you all for being there for me!

In other completely unrelated thoughts, I would like to share with you some of my promises to myself:
1-No matter how skinny (or not skinny) I ever get I will never ever ever wear skinny jeans.No offense to anyone you wears them, but I personally dislike that fashion statement greatly.
2-I will never wear clothes that are 4 sizes too small just because I lost 25 pounds and think I'm a size 8. I've seen this happen so many times. You lose a little wait and get a little confused and think you lost a LOT of weight and your fashion pays the price. I will not do this!
3-I will also never wear dresses that aren't actually dresses, but more of slightly long shirts. Shirts need to be worn with pants, which brings me to number 4
4-Leggings are not pants. Leggings are leggings. In general, I dislike leggings completely, but I understand the need to wear them sometimes. I will however, never mistake leggings for pants.

Have a great night everyone. Stay healthy!