Things I never noticed before

The funny thing about living such an unhealthy lifestyle for so long, is all the different things you don't notice. You just get used to not feeling great all the time, getting out of breath on a regular basis and generally being uncomfortable in your own skin.

What brought this whole thought process about stems from my dinner yesterday. (Prepare yourself for a very long explanation here).  Derek and I get our food delivered once a week through peapod (the delivery service for Giant grocery store), because it's easier than having to treck ourselves onto a bus and bring all those groceries back to the apartment. We usually get them delivered on Thursdays, but we decided to switch our delivery to Sunday instead, in order to make the food last longer. But in order to do this, we had to wait from Thursday the 8th until today to have it delivered. Seeing as the original delivery wasn't all that big, we were very stretched for food by today. This lead me to have to resort to all that was left for dinner last night, which was fried food.

After years and years of always eating fried food, I never noticed just how awful it made my stomach feel until today. I suppose after three weeks of salads and sandwiches and all sorts of yummy healthy goodness, this fried food did NOT agree with me. Lesson learned! I will think very carefully before attempting that again.

I think that a big part of living that life for so long is having such a strong sense of denial. For the longest time, the way I see myself in my head is completely different than whats on the outside. Now, in my head I don't think I'm skinny, but I probably imagine myself in the size 16-18 range, a good 25-30 pounds lighter than I really am. Part of this process to me is truly looking at myself and realizing what I've let myself become, and how I can change it to be a better me.

And for my newest food review!
South Beach Protein Bars: a HUGE step up from the Kashi bars I tried last week. Not only do they have 1-2 grams of protein more per bar and are much cheaper, but they have a hundred times more taste. I think I may have found my new favorite snack bar!

Have a wonderful day everybody. Don't forget to stay healthy!