I haven't written in here in quite some time, and for that I apologize. It started out as just being busy, and then ended somewhere around me being ashamed in my lack of progress. When my mom came to visit, my diet took a short hiatus while I enjoyed her company and some delicious food. After she left, my hiatus continued. Sadly, I have pretty much just stopped completely. This is not permanent! I do plan on recommitting myself to health...but after the Holidays. I know this is kind of a cop out, but I figure one last horrah can't hurt. Smokers are told to pick a date to quit, and stick to it, and that's what I'm going to do. January 1st. Me and food are going to begin a whole new relationship.
I'm also hoping that once I go back to school in January, the constant walking will help greatly. Being unemployed has made me a very boring person, and I often times don't leave the apartment for many days in a row. Sadly, my knee has begun to hurt on an all too often basis once again (for those of you that don't know, I have had two knee surgeries in the past). I need to visit an orthopedic surgeon soon, but I can't use the elliptical anymore, as that just aggravates it.
All in all though, my current (and temporary) failure is not my actual reason for updating my blog. I was walking to meet Derek for dinner the other night. I was dressed to the nines and felt gorgeous. Brand new knee high boots, all new clothes, my new favorite red lipstick, I felt great. What I thought was odd though, as great as I looked, the thing that actually made me feel awesome, feel sexy and beautiful, was my iPod (technically my phone, since my iPod has committed hard drive suicide). This is something I have noticed over the past few months. When I put in my headphones as I'm leaving home, crank up my current favorite song, and lip sing while I walk, I get almost a swagger as I go. I find it fascinating that something so simple can make one person feel so beautiful.
This got my thinking, of those of you who actually read this, what is it that makes you feel beautiful? Or unstoppable, as it may be? A certain shirt or pair of shoes? I want to know.
Have a wonderful day everybody, and just in case I don't get to you before hand, have a wonderful Christmas and a great new year!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Really? I mean...really?
For those of you who don't know, I applied for the photojournalism program at Corcoran College of Art and Design for the spring semester. I was told by both my admissions adviser and the program packet that I received in the mail a few weeks ago that it should only take about 2 weeks to get a response after I applied. Well, I finished my application on October 5th (after about 2 months of hassle getting transcripts from OCC and LIU). All of this adds up to me checking my mail for 3 weeks now, having all my hopes and dreams crushed every time I see an empty mailbox. I would like to ask, Ladies and Gentlemen if you know why I have been doing this for three (and a half) weeks, when I was promised only two mere weeks of torture? Well, this morning I found out in an e-mail. Apparently, my admissions adviser went on a national portfolio tour on October first, a mere four days before my application was finished. She just returned to the office today, meaning that my application was only just submitted to the committee for review this morning. Now, I understand that this isn't anyone's fault, just horrible luck on my part, but I would just like to say: Really? I mean REALLY? Shouldn't someone have been able to just take my lovely little folder, hand it to the committee and says "Accept this girl, she's freaking amazing!"?
I hate to admit it, but several times during this long three week span, seeing yet another empty mailbox has caused me to snack more than I should have. Snacking and over indulging is a lifelong habit that I have inherited from both my mother and my father, and it's taking me quite a long time to break this habit. I have noticed that keeping track of my calories actually helps me overcome my urge to snack. When I know that I have ingested all 1800 calories for the day, I can't convince myself that there's any room for that snack. But on days that I don't count, for whatever reason, it's much harder to resist. As odd as it sounds, this is one of the many reasons I enjoy counting my calories every day. I'm far less likely to over indulge when I have that number staring back at me.
I forgot to weigh myself this weekend due to having a house guest. I will, however, check on Friday and let you guys know!
My mom and brother are visiting this upcoming weekend, and my mom will be staying until Thursday morning, and I would like to take this time to promise you guys (and myself) that I will do my absolute best to stay 100% on my diet, and not over indulge while they are here. I've actually found that I've been doing really well at ordering the right foods while out at restaurants (thank goodness for smart phones and nutritional information). However, it's the soda that keeps holding me back! It's much easier at home to say no to the refil when I have to go to the fridge to get it myself, but when I'm out, the soda magically appears in front of me, and before I know it I've had 2 or 3 or 4 sodas in one meal. That adds up very fast, usually around 600 calories just in soda and I'm not even sure what happened. At home I never have more than one a day. I have orange juice and crystal light packets as well as apple cider. This is something I really want to work on.
On a slightly related thought, I'm having just an awful time consuming the recommended 64 ounces of water a day. The problem is not that I don't want to drink that much, especially with the crystal light packets, it's wonderful to actually be hydrated for once. The problem is humorously the exact opposite of my soda solution. Once I finish a bottle of water, which is only about 20 ounces, I never remember to get up and head back over to the fridge to refill. All the sudden it's the end of the night and I'm 44 ounces short of my goal. What I want to do is get a much bigger bottle, so that I only need to refill once. That is a far more likely scenario that keeps my hydrated and happy. I just don't have the money to find myself a bottle quite yet. But I will, eventually.
Anyhow, have a wonderful week everybody. Stay healthy!
I hate to admit it, but several times during this long three week span, seeing yet another empty mailbox has caused me to snack more than I should have. Snacking and over indulging is a lifelong habit that I have inherited from both my mother and my father, and it's taking me quite a long time to break this habit. I have noticed that keeping track of my calories actually helps me overcome my urge to snack. When I know that I have ingested all 1800 calories for the day, I can't convince myself that there's any room for that snack. But on days that I don't count, for whatever reason, it's much harder to resist. As odd as it sounds, this is one of the many reasons I enjoy counting my calories every day. I'm far less likely to over indulge when I have that number staring back at me.
I forgot to weigh myself this weekend due to having a house guest. I will, however, check on Friday and let you guys know!
My mom and brother are visiting this upcoming weekend, and my mom will be staying until Thursday morning, and I would like to take this time to promise you guys (and myself) that I will do my absolute best to stay 100% on my diet, and not over indulge while they are here. I've actually found that I've been doing really well at ordering the right foods while out at restaurants (thank goodness for smart phones and nutritional information). However, it's the soda that keeps holding me back! It's much easier at home to say no to the refil when I have to go to the fridge to get it myself, but when I'm out, the soda magically appears in front of me, and before I know it I've had 2 or 3 or 4 sodas in one meal. That adds up very fast, usually around 600 calories just in soda and I'm not even sure what happened. At home I never have more than one a day. I have orange juice and crystal light packets as well as apple cider. This is something I really want to work on.
On a slightly related thought, I'm having just an awful time consuming the recommended 64 ounces of water a day. The problem is not that I don't want to drink that much, especially with the crystal light packets, it's wonderful to actually be hydrated for once. The problem is humorously the exact opposite of my soda solution. Once I finish a bottle of water, which is only about 20 ounces, I never remember to get up and head back over to the fridge to refill. All the sudden it's the end of the night and I'm 44 ounces short of my goal. What I want to do is get a much bigger bottle, so that I only need to refill once. That is a far more likely scenario that keeps my hydrated and happy. I just don't have the money to find myself a bottle quite yet. But I will, eventually.
Anyhow, have a wonderful week everybody. Stay healthy!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Oh hey, how have you been? What? No, I haven't been avoiding you for years...
Do you want to know a secret? I avoid mirrors. Not ones that show my face, but anything that shows anything bellow my waist, I completely avoid. Do you know those pillars in stores like Marshalls and Bonton and what not that are basically giant mirrors? Well, over the past 21 years, I have completely perfected the art of walking past them without actually looking at them. Nothing ruins the fun of shopping quite like seeing your butt in florescent lighting.
This is one of those small habits that just sort of happen. You don't tell people about it, and you barely even admit it yourself and one day you just realize "I barely know what the bottom half of my body actually looks like." It's scary to think about what sort of habits such as these might have grown into if I hadn't been the leader of my own personal intervention.
Being this honest with you, all of you, makes me so much more comfortable than I thought it would. I thought it would be disconcerting, even a little terrifying laying my whole heart out there on the table, but I enjoy it. Writing these posts is my therapy. Thank you all for being there for me!
In other completely unrelated thoughts, I would like to share with you some of my promises to myself:
1-No matter how skinny (or not skinny) I ever get I will never ever ever wear skinny jeans.No offense to anyone you wears them, but I personally dislike that fashion statement greatly.
2-I will never wear clothes that are 4 sizes too small just because I lost 25 pounds and think I'm a size 8. I've seen this happen so many times. You lose a little wait and get a little confused and think you lost a LOT of weight and your fashion pays the price. I will not do this!
3-I will also never wear dresses that aren't actually dresses, but more of slightly long shirts. Shirts need to be worn with pants, which brings me to number 4
4-Leggings are not pants. Leggings are leggings. In general, I dislike leggings completely, but I understand the need to wear them sometimes. I will however, never mistake leggings for pants.
Have a great night everyone. Stay healthy!
This is one of those small habits that just sort of happen. You don't tell people about it, and you barely even admit it yourself and one day you just realize "I barely know what the bottom half of my body actually looks like." It's scary to think about what sort of habits such as these might have grown into if I hadn't been the leader of my own personal intervention.
Being this honest with you, all of you, makes me so much more comfortable than I thought it would. I thought it would be disconcerting, even a little terrifying laying my whole heart out there on the table, but I enjoy it. Writing these posts is my therapy. Thank you all for being there for me!
In other completely unrelated thoughts, I would like to share with you some of my promises to myself:
1-No matter how skinny (or not skinny) I ever get I will never ever ever wear skinny jeans.No offense to anyone you wears them, but I personally dislike that fashion statement greatly.
2-I will never wear clothes that are 4 sizes too small just because I lost 25 pounds and think I'm a size 8. I've seen this happen so many times. You lose a little wait and get a little confused and think you lost a LOT of weight and your fashion pays the price. I will not do this!
3-I will also never wear dresses that aren't actually dresses, but more of slightly long shirts. Shirts need to be worn with pants, which brings me to number 4
4-Leggings are not pants. Leggings are leggings. In general, I dislike leggings completely, but I understand the need to wear them sometimes. I will however, never mistake leggings for pants.
Have a great night everyone. Stay healthy!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Can we all please discuss how amazing a Skip It would be?
I am writing this post for one main reason. The Skip It. Derek and I were talking earlier about various fun things from our childhoods, and I had the most amazing idea. I want to own a Skip It. Can we just imagine how great of a work out a Skip It probably is? Especially when done for long periods of time. I'm kind of in love with this idea. Unfortunately, I have no yard or driveway or any real place to use a Skip It, so it doesn't seem like a logical investment (plus I can only find a Barbie Skip It, which I would probably buy anyways because it's pink and has sparkles on it. Sparkles!
Over the course of the next few months, and years for that matter, this journey is going to be filled with a plethora of ups and downs. There are going to be small victories and gigantic milestones, and I am so excited about this. Some of these victories and milestones I am so excited for. One thing I have always wanted to be able to do was wear American Eagle jeans. I have never fit into them before, and I've always fantasized about owning a pair. And now, after only four weeks of this, I am 1/2 an inch closer to my waist fitting in. I still have about 3.5 inches to go, but it's completely worth the wait and the battle to me. There are a thousand other things I'm excited for. My first bikini (which I have totally already picked out), fitting into the shirt I've kept for years even though it doesn't quite fit anymore and going upstairs without getting out of breath. These are just a few of the things I have to look forward to.
In today's news, I still have not gotten any mail and I am unbelievably in love with Skinny Cow ice cream. Have you ever had it? Get it! It was on sale this week so we got the cookies and cream ice cream sandwich, which only has 160 calories. Since I don't crave ice cream terribly too often, it's 160 calories well well spent. Honestly, it was far better than some of the full fat ice cream sandwiches I've had before. I must try for any healthy eater with a sweet tooth.
I would like to update the design of this blog to better match my purpose here and my (awesome) personality, but it's been so long since I've done any HTML work, it'll take me a bit to fully figure out what I want to do. But, look forward to it. Also, I swear I'll put up that before picture (even though it's been a month), but I almost always update using Derek's laptop and my picture is on my Mac, which is all the way over there (I'm pointing at it, but you can't see it). At some point in time though, I will upload it!
Have a wonderful day everybody. And stay healthy!
Over the course of the next few months, and years for that matter, this journey is going to be filled with a plethora of ups and downs. There are going to be small victories and gigantic milestones, and I am so excited about this. Some of these victories and milestones I am so excited for. One thing I have always wanted to be able to do was wear American Eagle jeans. I have never fit into them before, and I've always fantasized about owning a pair. And now, after only four weeks of this, I am 1/2 an inch closer to my waist fitting in. I still have about 3.5 inches to go, but it's completely worth the wait and the battle to me. There are a thousand other things I'm excited for. My first bikini (which I have totally already picked out), fitting into the shirt I've kept for years even though it doesn't quite fit anymore and going upstairs without getting out of breath. These are just a few of the things I have to look forward to.
In today's news, I still have not gotten any mail and I am unbelievably in love with Skinny Cow ice cream. Have you ever had it? Get it! It was on sale this week so we got the cookies and cream ice cream sandwich, which only has 160 calories. Since I don't crave ice cream terribly too often, it's 160 calories well well spent. Honestly, it was far better than some of the full fat ice cream sandwiches I've had before. I must try for any healthy eater with a sweet tooth.
I would like to update the design of this blog to better match my purpose here and my (awesome) personality, but it's been so long since I've done any HTML work, it'll take me a bit to fully figure out what I want to do. But, look forward to it. Also, I swear I'll put up that before picture (even though it's been a month), but I almost always update using Derek's laptop and my picture is on my Mac, which is all the way over there (I'm pointing at it, but you can't see it). At some point in time though, I will upload it!
Have a wonderful day everybody. And stay healthy!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Things I never noticed before
The funny thing about living such an unhealthy lifestyle for so long, is all the different things you don't notice. You just get used to not feeling great all the time, getting out of breath on a regular basis and generally being uncomfortable in your own skin.
What brought this whole thought process about stems from my dinner yesterday. (Prepare yourself for a very long explanation here). Derek and I get our food delivered once a week through peapod (the delivery service for Giant grocery store), because it's easier than having to treck ourselves onto a bus and bring all those groceries back to the apartment. We usually get them delivered on Thursdays, but we decided to switch our delivery to Sunday instead, in order to make the food last longer. But in order to do this, we had to wait from Thursday the 8th until today to have it delivered. Seeing as the original delivery wasn't all that big, we were very stretched for food by today. This lead me to have to resort to all that was left for dinner last night, which was fried food.
After years and years of always eating fried food, I never noticed just how awful it made my stomach feel until today. I suppose after three weeks of salads and sandwiches and all sorts of yummy healthy goodness, this fried food did NOT agree with me. Lesson learned! I will think very carefully before attempting that again.
I think that a big part of living that life for so long is having such a strong sense of denial. For the longest time, the way I see myself in my head is completely different than whats on the outside. Now, in my head I don't think I'm skinny, but I probably imagine myself in the size 16-18 range, a good 25-30 pounds lighter than I really am. Part of this process to me is truly looking at myself and realizing what I've let myself become, and how I can change it to be a better me.
And for my newest food review!
South Beach Protein Bars: a HUGE step up from the Kashi bars I tried last week. Not only do they have 1-2 grams of protein more per bar and are much cheaper, but they have a hundred times more taste. I think I may have found my new favorite snack bar!
Have a wonderful day everybody. Don't forget to stay healthy!
What brought this whole thought process about stems from my dinner yesterday. (Prepare yourself for a very long explanation here). Derek and I get our food delivered once a week through peapod (the delivery service for Giant grocery store), because it's easier than having to treck ourselves onto a bus and bring all those groceries back to the apartment. We usually get them delivered on Thursdays, but we decided to switch our delivery to Sunday instead, in order to make the food last longer. But in order to do this, we had to wait from Thursday the 8th until today to have it delivered. Seeing as the original delivery wasn't all that big, we were very stretched for food by today. This lead me to have to resort to all that was left for dinner last night, which was fried food.
After years and years of always eating fried food, I never noticed just how awful it made my stomach feel until today. I suppose after three weeks of salads and sandwiches and all sorts of yummy healthy goodness, this fried food did NOT agree with me. Lesson learned! I will think very carefully before attempting that again.
I think that a big part of living that life for so long is having such a strong sense of denial. For the longest time, the way I see myself in my head is completely different than whats on the outside. Now, in my head I don't think I'm skinny, but I probably imagine myself in the size 16-18 range, a good 25-30 pounds lighter than I really am. Part of this process to me is truly looking at myself and realizing what I've let myself become, and how I can change it to be a better me.
And for my newest food review!
South Beach Protein Bars: a HUGE step up from the Kashi bars I tried last week. Not only do they have 1-2 grams of protein more per bar and are much cheaper, but they have a hundred times more taste. I think I may have found my new favorite snack bar!
Have a wonderful day everybody. Don't forget to stay healthy!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Approx. six pounds in 3.5 weeks. Good progress!
Well it's Saturday and we all know what that means! Well, I know what it means. I weighed myself this morning and attempted some new measurements. The measurements failed because I don't actually have a real measuring tape, just the tie to my robe and a ruler. I do have a good feeling my waist is a bit smaller, perhaps half an inch or so. So yay for that. Plus my weight is now at 249. Yay for that as well.
I have to admit, going only 1-2 pounds a week is mentally exhausting because I keep feeling like I should be seeing more results, but I know going slow is a far better way to go.
There's not all that much else to say today, but I thought I would at least update with my latest numbers. Stay healthy everybody!
I have to admit, going only 1-2 pounds a week is mentally exhausting because I keep feeling like I should be seeing more results, but I know going slow is a far better way to go.
There's not all that much else to say today, but I thought I would at least update with my latest numbers. Stay healthy everybody!
Friday, October 15, 2010
What I want you to know
So, over the past three weeks I've been writing in this blog, and although no one comments on here directly, I've been getting a ton of feedback via facebook, AIM and text messages. I want every single one of you to know how much I appreciate this! And to every one else who has thought about saying something but was nervous I may take it the wrong way, or get upset about your throwing in your own opinion, please let me know what you're thinking!
Whether it's constructive criticism for my plan or advice and tidbits you've learned that maybe I haven't talked about, I would really love to hear it. That's why I'm doing this, for the support and the help that all of you can offer to me. So please please please, don't ever be scared to let me know what you're thinking. Unless it's mean, then you can just mind your own business :).
Now, lately I've been living in the world of my George Forman Grill and my self made paninis! I use a tiny bit of butter on the outside to make sure it stays crispy, then add cheese and turkey and a teeny tiny bit of mayo just to moisten it up (less than a teaspoon) and of course it's light mayo because that's all I've ever used. Then I grill it just until the cheese melts and it's amazingly delicious. On the side I usually have a 100 calorie pack of chips (home packaged into zip lock bags!) and a crystal light water bottle. This is my lunch every day.
I'm unique when it comes to food because I'm obnoxiously picky and when I find something I like I usually eat it over and over and over until I get bored of it. When we first moved here, it was Mac and Cheese and chicken nuggets. Now it's paninis! Plus my favorite food in the entire world is a good sammich! When I worked at Dakota watch, I always had Subway for lunch. Then at Ulta it was always a Panera sandwich then at Books a million, it was a turkey softwich (a mix of bagel and bread. kind of heavenly).
My other latest thing has been the Kashi Go Lean protein bars. Although, let me tell you, they have almost NO TASTE. Gosh darn they were disappointing taste wise, but with only about 180 calories and 9 grams of protein, they are a great little dessert.
This week I'm also going to try some of the yummy dessert yogurts that yoplait has, such as Boston Creme Pie and Strawberry Shortcake! They sound amazing, and as long as I continue to pretend that yogurt isn't really alive, I shall continue to enjoy them. Plus I got some Ovaltine, since I've been craving chocolate milk lately. (Secret confession, I was watching Chelsea Lately and Lauren Conrad was on and mentioned she has been drinking Ovaltine and it made me crave it in a major way).
I'm also greatly looking forward to getting crab cakes with the grocery delivery since they are pretty much the greatest thing ever made. Ever.
In other news, my family is tentatively coming down to visit at the end of this month. I'm super excited for this and also hoping I can keep this up while they're here and maybe impart some of my new found knowledge on them as well. I hope they can handle me being "that person" who asks for the nutritional information before ordering while out to eat! It may be obnoxious, but it's amazingly refreshing to know what I'm eating (and how much it will cost me before I do so). This helped when we went to Ruby Tuesdays last week. Instead of getting something horrible, I ended up with the crab cakes, which per their N.I. (as I shall now on be referring to it) only had 94 calories per cake! So helpful to know.
Goodnight everybody. Stay Healthy!
P.S.
As per most nights, I have been late night online window shopping at various stores. I have become so frustrated, I decided this is the best place for me to vent. I am a plus size woman. I have been wearing plus size clothing since I was 14 or so. And when this is over, I may very well still be considered plus size, there's no way of knowing! And do you know what I hate above all else about being plus size? The clothes! It's so unfair how I am expected to dress. I am twenty one years old! I have curves and I like to show then off. Can the fashion industry please explain the following garments to me?
Could you please please explain to me how this is supposed to help my figure or for that matter anyone's figure at all? I understand that the lines at the waist are meant to "cinch in" and trick the eye into making it seem like I have a smaller waist, but the fit is just appalling. I mean really, how am I supposed to feel good about myself when I look 40 lb bigger! This model is young and beautiful, and I'm sure she has a great body, but this is making her look awful.
Or in this case, we can skip even pretending to make it look like she has a waist and but her in a square sweater that basically just adds bulk and sadness. Now she has no figure at all! Poor girl, to have her curves stolen from her just like that.
These are the clothes that the fashion industry has been trying to pawn on me since I was fourteen. Fourteen! While all of my classmates were wearing tiny little American Eagle and Pac Sun and Hollister clothing, I was stuck with this. Being plus size, you're often given exactly two choices: Old Lady or Ghetto Princess. How is this okay? How is this still being tolerated in the twenty first century. It's 2010! We have vacuums that drive themselves over the carpets, toilets that automatically flush and phones that do more than half the computers could 25 years ago, but we still don't have clothes for the young hip plus size girl? This is just pathetic.
End of rant. Thank you all for reading. And I apologize if anyone happens to own either of those two dresses, I don't mean to offend.
Once again, have a wonderful night and stay healthy!
Whether it's constructive criticism for my plan or advice and tidbits you've learned that maybe I haven't talked about, I would really love to hear it. That's why I'm doing this, for the support and the help that all of you can offer to me. So please please please, don't ever be scared to let me know what you're thinking. Unless it's mean, then you can just mind your own business :).
Now, lately I've been living in the world of my George Forman Grill and my self made paninis! I use a tiny bit of butter on the outside to make sure it stays crispy, then add cheese and turkey and a teeny tiny bit of mayo just to moisten it up (less than a teaspoon) and of course it's light mayo because that's all I've ever used. Then I grill it just until the cheese melts and it's amazingly delicious. On the side I usually have a 100 calorie pack of chips (home packaged into zip lock bags!) and a crystal light water bottle. This is my lunch every day.
I'm unique when it comes to food because I'm obnoxiously picky and when I find something I like I usually eat it over and over and over until I get bored of it. When we first moved here, it was Mac and Cheese and chicken nuggets. Now it's paninis! Plus my favorite food in the entire world is a good sammich! When I worked at Dakota watch, I always had Subway for lunch. Then at Ulta it was always a Panera sandwich then at Books a million, it was a turkey softwich (a mix of bagel and bread. kind of heavenly).
My other latest thing has been the Kashi Go Lean protein bars. Although, let me tell you, they have almost NO TASTE. Gosh darn they were disappointing taste wise, but with only about 180 calories and 9 grams of protein, they are a great little dessert.
This week I'm also going to try some of the yummy dessert yogurts that yoplait has, such as Boston Creme Pie and Strawberry Shortcake! They sound amazing, and as long as I continue to pretend that yogurt isn't really alive, I shall continue to enjoy them. Plus I got some Ovaltine, since I've been craving chocolate milk lately. (Secret confession, I was watching Chelsea Lately and Lauren Conrad was on and mentioned she has been drinking Ovaltine and it made me crave it in a major way).
I'm also greatly looking forward to getting crab cakes with the grocery delivery since they are pretty much the greatest thing ever made. Ever.
In other news, my family is tentatively coming down to visit at the end of this month. I'm super excited for this and also hoping I can keep this up while they're here and maybe impart some of my new found knowledge on them as well. I hope they can handle me being "that person" who asks for the nutritional information before ordering while out to eat! It may be obnoxious, but it's amazingly refreshing to know what I'm eating (and how much it will cost me before I do so). This helped when we went to Ruby Tuesdays last week. Instead of getting something horrible, I ended up with the crab cakes, which per their N.I. (as I shall now on be referring to it) only had 94 calories per cake! So helpful to know.
Goodnight everybody. Stay Healthy!
P.S.
As per most nights, I have been late night online window shopping at various stores. I have become so frustrated, I decided this is the best place for me to vent. I am a plus size woman. I have been wearing plus size clothing since I was 14 or so. And when this is over, I may very well still be considered plus size, there's no way of knowing! And do you know what I hate above all else about being plus size? The clothes! It's so unfair how I am expected to dress. I am twenty one years old! I have curves and I like to show then off. Can the fashion industry please explain the following garments to me?
Could you please please explain to me how this is supposed to help my figure or for that matter anyone's figure at all? I understand that the lines at the waist are meant to "cinch in" and trick the eye into making it seem like I have a smaller waist, but the fit is just appalling. I mean really, how am I supposed to feel good about myself when I look 40 lb bigger! This model is young and beautiful, and I'm sure she has a great body, but this is making her look awful.
Or in this case, we can skip even pretending to make it look like she has a waist and but her in a square sweater that basically just adds bulk and sadness. Now she has no figure at all! Poor girl, to have her curves stolen from her just like that.
These are the clothes that the fashion industry has been trying to pawn on me since I was fourteen. Fourteen! While all of my classmates were wearing tiny little American Eagle and Pac Sun and Hollister clothing, I was stuck with this. Being plus size, you're often given exactly two choices: Old Lady or Ghetto Princess. How is this okay? How is this still being tolerated in the twenty first century. It's 2010! We have vacuums that drive themselves over the carpets, toilets that automatically flush and phones that do more than half the computers could 25 years ago, but we still don't have clothes for the young hip plus size girl? This is just pathetic.
End of rant. Thank you all for reading. And I apologize if anyone happens to own either of those two dresses, I don't mean to offend.
Once again, have a wonderful night and stay healthy!
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