I haven't written in here in quite some time, and for that I apologize. It started out as just being busy, and then ended somewhere around me being ashamed in my lack of progress. When my mom came to visit, my diet took a short hiatus while I enjoyed her company and some delicious food. After she left, my hiatus continued. Sadly, I have pretty much just stopped completely. This is not permanent! I do plan on recommitting myself to health...but after the Holidays. I know this is kind of a cop out, but I figure one last horrah can't hurt. Smokers are told to pick a date to quit, and stick to it, and that's what I'm going to do. January 1st. Me and food are going to begin a whole new relationship.
I'm also hoping that once I go back to school in January, the constant walking will help greatly. Being unemployed has made me a very boring person, and I often times don't leave the apartment for many days in a row. Sadly, my knee has begun to hurt on an all too often basis once again (for those of you that don't know, I have had two knee surgeries in the past). I need to visit an orthopedic surgeon soon, but I can't use the elliptical anymore, as that just aggravates it.
All in all though, my current (and temporary) failure is not my actual reason for updating my blog. I was walking to meet Derek for dinner the other night. I was dressed to the nines and felt gorgeous. Brand new knee high boots, all new clothes, my new favorite red lipstick, I felt great. What I thought was odd though, as great as I looked, the thing that actually made me feel awesome, feel sexy and beautiful, was my iPod (technically my phone, since my iPod has committed hard drive suicide). This is something I have noticed over the past few months. When I put in my headphones as I'm leaving home, crank up my current favorite song, and lip sing while I walk, I get almost a swagger as I go. I find it fascinating that something so simple can make one person feel so beautiful.
This got my thinking, of those of you who actually read this, what is it that makes you feel beautiful? Or unstoppable, as it may be? A certain shirt or pair of shoes? I want to know.
Have a wonderful day everybody, and just in case I don't get to you before hand, have a wonderful Christmas and a great new year!
